Wow, I’ve got to tell you that two years ago when all this started this is not at all what I had pictured or imagined. When I was chosen to be an Season 3 Everyday Edison I was on top of the world. I couldn’t believe I was chosen out of so many people that tried.

I believed in my idea but I also knew that there were a lot of us out there taking out shot. I was so amazed that mine actually hit the mark and that I had been chosen.

It’s been a very long time since that fateful day back in May of 08. Everyday Edisons true to their word has pretty much kept me in the dark on my Folding pans. It’s been a very long wait and things are happening but just not how I pictured it.

The show was delayed because they wanted more time to fully develop the inventions this season. Made sense to me but then the premier that was supposed to happen in September of 09 got pushed to May of 2010. After all the time I had waited it was hard to say oh…okay it’s going to be an even longer wait. Then you have to finally accept that’s the way it’s going to be and you move on and work on other ideas and wait some more.

Then the big day comes. It’s May 1st 2010 and the show has been released only for you to find out that the two stations in your area aren’t going to air it for the premier and they may not air it at all.

One of the biggest moments in my life, me on TV comes and goes and I don’t even get to see it. It’s all very strange. I thought by now I’d know what they did with my idea at least. That I would be done filming and while everyone else out there were waiting to find out what happened I’d be sitting back in the know…having to keep the secret.

Well, That didn’t happen. here we are almost at the end of May. The show has been airing about a month now and I still haven’t seen it and those that have actually know more than I do. I have not done final filming and there has been no big reveal yet.

I still have no idea what my pans have turned into. I do have a name…Space Bakers, which they announced publicly before they even told me. I found out what the name was when a friend emailed to ask me what I thought of it. Very very strange to me.

Don’t get me wrong I’m very grateful to be in the position I am in. I’m on TV. I have a product that came from my mind being developed to be sold by an as of yet unnamed company that I’m hoping is a big player. I have my name on a patent and I can officially call myself an inventor. I’m very very proud of that. I’m also very aware of how lucky I am to have this opportunity. It’s just it didn’t go down anything like I imagined it would.

The process is so alien and different than anything you could possibly imagine. They tell you they keep you in the dark for the show but you never really understand exactly what that means until it happens to you. It’s sounds like it’s going to be this huge exciting adventure but in reality it is more of a long and drawn out experiment in patience, endurance and mental torture.

I have days when I dream and imagine what could be. I imagine the bigger house. Not worrying about the electric bill. Being able to see the world and put the kids through college without having to struggle. Then I have other days where I’m down on the whole process because it’s been so long since I heard anything. I try not to let my self imagine what could happen. I have to act like nothing happened and it may not amount to anything.

Technically it could go either way and I need to prepare for it not going the “good” way. Then sometimes I just have to put it completely out of my mind either way because thinking about it just drives me totally crazy.

So many of my hopes are tied up in something that at this point is still a total mystery. It seems insane but it’s out there and something is happening I just don’t know what.

I’m here waiting for that big reveal. Trying to prepare myself for it, but how do you prepare for something you don’t know anything about. I try to temper my thoughts and not build it up too big. I mean I can imagine it being sold by rubbermaid or some other huge company, but understand I may have never even heard of who actually has it.

What happens if I don’t like it? I mean I know EN knows their stuff and I’m very happy with all their packaging I’ve seen but what happens if I go there with all my anticipation that’s been building for almost 2 years and I don’t like it? I don’t want to seem ungrateful but that is a possibility. I don’t want to come off like an ungrateful jerk on TV but I just have no idea how I may react. I’m hoping for the best and preparing for the worst. No matter what happens I know it’s more than would have happened if I hadn’t decided to go to that casting call in Providence.

I’m going to go to the big reveal open minded and hopeful. I have absolutely no control over what happens from there. Those of you with the inside info. Those that read this blog will have a better insight on just what is going through my mind when you get to watch that final episode where I find out what they’ve been up to.

Know that whatever happens I know how lucky I am to be where I am. If I react a little strangely hopefully this blog will give you insight into just how stressful a “Big Reveal” can be. I have a lot riding on this and absolutely no idea what that will mean that day in that moment. You may be in for some very entertaining TV that day or you may see a deer in the headlights. I think it’s 50/50 one way or the other.